What the hell is wrong with me? I’ve been so emotional over the past few days it’s crazy. I cry when Alan hugs me. I cry when someone shouts at me. I even cried when Adam on Idols sang the other night. I can’t handle this anymore. I can’t even function properly at work. I look at my boss with hate. Probably cause we all hate him every now and then. More now than then. But still. This is not like me and I don’t like it. What makes it worse is that it feels like I’m always moaning. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Someone should have seriously told me that it’s like this when you’re pregnant. Will seriously rethink having that second child! Please don’t get me wrong, I’m not being ungrateful, it’s just seriously bad. To add to it for the past few days I’ve had this threatening tummy bug and it now looks like it’s here in full force. Sorry for you Nicky, there is nothing you can take.

Wow, it’s been ages hey. First it was Christmas then there was a little new years surprise. I’ve been too scared to say anything here as I didn’t want to jinx anything. But I can share now. I’m well and truly safe. I’m 21 weeks pregnant. Next week I’ll be 6 months. Can’t believe how time has flown. It’s been a rough 6 months though. Spotting and bed rest more spotting. But all seems to have settled nicely. We’re not gonna find out what it is. We want it to be a surprise.

So we went to the Fetal Assessment Clinic on Monday. I love those scans. We got her to take a picture of the genitals and put it in a sealed envelope so that we could at least have a picture of the parts for the baby’s scrapbook. Obviously I just want to open the damn thing but Alan and I have both signed the back of it so that we will know if one of us has. Just a few more weeks then we’ll know right! Anyway back to the scan. Our beautiful child is now measuring in at 24.5cm and weights 430g. All is healthy too. No holes in the heart. No water on the brain. Everything is hundreds.

Can’t believe that we’re finally here. After all we’ve been through. We’re now ordering cots, checking out prams, bed is booked at the hospital. I’ve even booked our antenatal classes. We’re gonna be parents.